Thursday, December 9, 2010

You Hold Me Now

At church one of our newer songs is "You Hold Me Now" by Hillsong United. I love the song and I feel especially connected with it at this time in my life. Here are the lyrics:

On that day when I see all that You have for me
When I see You face to face there surrounded by Your grace
All my fears swept away in the light of Your embrace
Where Your love is all I need and forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone

No weeping no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now You hold me now

In this life I will stand through my joy and my pain
Knowing there’s a greater day there’s a hope that never fails
Where Your Name is lifted high and forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name I’m believing for the day

Where the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone

For eternity all my heart will give
All the glory to Your Name


I think about my daughter Evangeline when I think about this song. It's weird, before I had a kid I really had no instincts for what to do with an unhappy kid (other than hand them back to one of their parents). In fact, it made me pretty uncomfortable. I think Emily was the same way. She wasn't really a kid person. Since Evie has been here though, and honestly since early on, a switch just flipped. Parents told us this would happen, but like anything else, it is hard to grasp until you experience it. Emily is an amazing mama and seems to have all the answers for Evie. She loves every second of parenting more than I would have ever thought she would. This stirs my affections for the Lord.

Back to the song. There are a few times when Evie has gotten a shot, or has had a stomach ache or has just been upset and we don't know why. Instinctively, we pick her up and hold her tight. We talk to her and calm her down. We give her this security and comfort. The last two weeks have just been a little bit difficult for a number of reasons. I have been pretty stressed and emotional. I believe with all of my heart that God is holding me tight. The song describes a day when all the hurt and pain is gone. Unfortunately, the promise is not for no pain or suffering now in this current life. I think Hebrews 11 speaks to that clearly. That some suffer and are mocked and even endure terrible deaths. In that time, I think he snatches us up and holds us tight. I'm so thankful for this truth, and for eternity, all my heart will give all the glory to Jesus. We long for the day with no weeping or hurt or pain. In this life though I will stand knowing there is a greater day to come.